I read a lot of blogs of friends telling of their faith journey. Almost all of them deal with loss. Some of us took a hammering, lost our best friends, were uprooted out of the group that loved us and had to move on to the unknown. For some, the past months and years were lonely years.
We talk about our loss a great deal. Our loss. Large quantities are being written about this. We can describe every detail. We certainly know what we came out of.
I want to reflect on what I believe is more important and that is: Did we only lose? Did we simply stumble into a life-sized emptiness? The wilderness. The dessert. The short walk to nowhere that keeps going on forever?
Or….Did we gain anything? “What have we fallen into?”
I think I read this quote somewhere, if not, I actually thought this one out 🙂 (Please tell me if you know who said this.) It is one thing to stand in the sun and feel the warmth on your back. It is another thing to fall into the sun.
The same applies to Jesus and us. Scores of us go to weekly gatherings, feeling the warmth of the Son on our backs. It’s nice to know He is here somewhere and that makes us happy. Gradually for some, high-speed for others however, the environment has changed. The warmth is gone. In this process, we can find ourselves in 2 places. One is cold dessert where we long for what was. The other is a falling into the Son.
In the first instance, we can trace back what went wrong. Why did all those awful things happen? Perhaps, we can create a better Egypt. We can have a place whare all the slaves are equal. Perhaps a smaller Egypt will be the right thing. Perhaps then, every slave will be seen as an individual that is important part of the mechanism. No longer will the slave be overlooked or taken for granted. No, we will create a place where all slaves can be valued. Egypt after all is not that bad. We were fed. Ok, Ok… we had food.
The second option is to fall into the Son. That means, life as we knew it, is over. Jesus will become the whole lot. The Everything. When we fall into Jesus, warmth, ceases to exist. Destruction. Consumed. Decreasing. We lose. Only “I am” is left. Love. Freedom. Forgiveness. Delight. Silence. Endurance. Kindness. Righteousness. Vast open spaces. Friendship. Closeness. Gentleness. Playfulness. Good humor. The end of loneliness. These are some of the puzzle-pieces of the Person I worship, that have I have “gained”.
Did we only leave because it was bad? Or did we leave because of a hunger that was never satisfied? Turns out, we have the opportunity to fall into Jesus. We do not always know what this means, but it is the ongoing adventure of the windblown people.