Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above.
He changed it to a more victorious “Prone to worship, prone to praise.”
Why is it that we have the compulsion to equate God with success? We are currently going to a medium sized congregation and the message Sunday after Sunday is “God will make things better” And don’t get me wrong, I know God is with the leaders and the members of that congregation. But I struggle with that kind of message severely. Perhaps it’s because it’s one side of the coin and that side is held up every Sunday for everybody to see. I believe that this causes the church a lot of harm. Perhaps it’s because discipleship is mostly absent from the church. With discipleship you see the mess. Feel the frustration. Experience the doubt. Sense the pain. Enjoy the laughter. Guess what the hell is going on. Practice boredom. Wasting time. Prone to wander……etc. etc.
Perhaps it’s just me. It’s sometimes easier to not believe. Then we don’t have to struggle with a God that’s not doing His part. I am His child and I want good things to happen but it seems that He is absent from all my good plans. Complain, grieve, lament, moan, mourn, regret, sing the blues, weeping. Do we have to do these things away from Sunday’s? Where nobody can see us? Is Sunday the victorious day and all the other the real life days? Could be. Perhaps I’m out of sync.
John ends his post by saying the following.
We tell each other we’re not prone to wander.
We act like our days of falling down are forever behind us.
And we create environments where no one can be honest.
You can’t share your whole life with somebody when the expectation is that you don’t fail.
You can only share the victories. And if you don’t have any victories that day or week, you better act like you do. Because as a Christian, you shouldn’t be prone to wander. And if you have, you just might not be a real Christian after all.
I love Jesus. That is why I struggle with Him every day. You can join me whenever you want to 🙂